a shoulder to cry..

ohho..smlm aku ngn liza sudah buat something yg di luar jangkaan..
kitorg sudah gali kubur utk kitorg sndiri..hahaha..sgt menakutkan..

act kitorg dpt 1 berita sedih which is kitorg x dpt nk sambung kontrak as a teacher..
a lil bit dissapointed jgk sbnrnye bcoz firstly aku rindu nk mngajar bdk2 tu eventhough diorg tersangat nakal..2ndly aku ingt rezeki aku adalah jd cikgu n aku akn teruskan perjuangan as a teacher..3rdly mak ayah aku sgt berharap aku jd cikgu sbb diorg ckp cikgu ni senang..kerja singkat cuti byk and so on..mak..nur mtk maap..i was trying my best..

then lps blk dr JPWP..dgn muka yg frust..aku pn amek keputusan utk call agensi pekerjaan ni..
no. ni aku dpt dr ayu..die penah call n dh dpt keje..kire senang la kn..coz xyah nk tggu lame2 utk dptkn keje..juz tunggu company tu arrangekn keje yg suitable utk kite..but act its not that easy as i thought..hahaha..lps dh call agensi tu..she whose named miss yamuna want us to come to discuss in more detail la..

then bile dh dtg...die terus propose kitorg to another job..act dlm fon td die propose job as HR assistant at Bangsar..die ckp disebabkan kitorg ni kn degree holder..so xkn die nk bg job yg level SPM je..act aku x penah kisah pn keje tu ape..at least aku dpt working experience..n aku x pressure..aku sgt takut kalo aku stress n pressure..

job yg die propose tu is customer service executive at OCBC BANK..job ni mmg nk degree holder esp. fresh graduate..so mmg bertepatan la ngn kitorg..so after the discussion..we were given 4 simple test..tp xde la simple sgt...die je ckp simple..
1st..english test..die bg 1 surat dr customer..juz like complaining letter la..so die nk kitorg reply that letter..use our own creativity..juz want to see our grammar..so aku pn dgn x tau ape2..terus mereka ayat.."dear valued customer......"ok..done..hahahaha
2nd test..call simulation..die nk tgk cara kite ckp dlm fon..haha..it was very very terrible at the first trial..the the 2nd trial is better..confidence level aku is very low..yes i already know that.
3rd test..typing test..how many words we can type in 2 minutes..without any typing error...aku juz mampu type 65 words..agak teruk..sbb aku terlalu nervous..
4th test..mathematics..juz like a basic maths tp aku salah 2..adeh..hahahaha..

the after all the test done..die ckp we can proceed to the interview session which is on 8th of january..tibe2 aku rase sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt takut..bcoz this is my first interview..ade interview lain tp mcm kecik2 n ckp melayu..so aku boleh merepek whatever aku nk merepek..but not for this one..aku x tau nape aku rase bnde ni sgt berat utk aku tanggung..n tibe2 pressure aku dtg..aku x tau nape aku pilih jln ni..mmg tgh pressure yg amat ni..

on the way home aku diam je..act i really need someone to talk to...then dlm bas nk blk air mate aku terus kuar tnpa mintak izin dr aku langsung..shit!aku nangis lg..dh la dlm bas..nsb baik org x prasan n liza je yg tau..kalo ade yg lain nmpk pn lantak r..air mate aku bkn ko..plus ngn masalah2 lain yg aku x dpt nk setel sbb aku x tau puncanye..so lg la kpale otak aku lg berserabut..air mate aku terus kuar smpai la bus benti n aku turun..stop it la dayah..jgn nangis lg..

bkn aku xnk luah bnde ni seme kt mak aku tp aku xnk diorg risau..esp. mak aku tu..kalo die dgr suara aku nangis..die lg gelabah n kemungkinan suh aku blk umah je terus..tu la masalah skang..n aku plak..kalo dgr suara mak aku..air mata aku ni lg teruja nk kuar..dh jd mcm air paip plak..mmg teruk..aku nk luah kt die..tp.........condition skang tgh x elok..so he wont pick up the fon..its ok..as long as i have my best best best fren..liza n ain..diorg yg cool me down..

juz follow the flow la dayah...kalo x dpt that job..its ok..try another..thn 2009 ni mmg sgt mencabar bagi aku..it start with the THESIS..smpai aku pengsan2 kne asid..then BREAK UP..after 3 years of sharing everything..he left me behind..next is PENGANGGUR..yg ni mmg sgt mencabar..keje seminggu then kne benti..keje sebulan then benti..here n there..fuhhh!!!
1/2 dr thn ni adalah PENGANGGUR..sakit2..dgn GAJI x dpt..KONTRAK pn xleh sambung..x abih2 seeking for the job..i hope this coming 2010..my life will be better..aku dh x saba nk settle down everything..
hmmm~penatnye meluahkan perasaan..ye..kt cni je tmpt aku boleh luahkan ape yg aku rase..thats y la aku x publishkn sgt blog ni..aku x letak kt facebook or anywhere..tp mybe ade la yg tau kot..hopefully diorg x bace entry2 aku..kalo bace pn mcm bosan je..baik jgn bace..MEMBOSANKAN!!!!!!!